I see THE SUN

hey all,

Thanks to you who read my blog. So, you know the story of my life. The ups and the downs. Thanks for all your support.

Okay, I'm happy cause everything is on its way to being back to normal again. I really see the sun that's going to bright up my life and my family life again. I'm so so so happy. After everything that we've been through, through out the year, I can say it to be our darkest time in out life for now, is all going to end, if God allows it. I'm happy to see my mom is happy again, I mean really happy and I'm happy that everyone in my family is happy again.

I know that someone who read this is going through the same thing. I will tell you that, it will come to an end at certain time. Keep praying for the best and always have faith in yourself and in God. This kind of situation teach about the true meaning of life. If we didn't went through this kind of things, we won't know what hardship is all about. Go thorugh it with it. Don't runaway from it.

Well, another thing that I'm happy with is, Aizat out from AF..hahahahahhaa...I'm running out of ideas actually. Here's a song for today's post:

I am The Highway
Audioslave

Pearls and swine bereft me
Long and weary my road has been
I was lost in the cities
Alone in the hills
No sorrow or pity for leaving I feel

I am not you rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky

Friends an liars don't wait for me
I'll get on by myself
I put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close to you
I feel

I amnot your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am your sky

That's all from me, enjoy!!

cheers!! -live LIFE happily-

TiRed Eyes and TireD MinD

hello,

Aren't you just tired with someone who keeps on bugging you and asking you to fulfill what you've promise them?I know I am. Can't people understand when they say they can't fulfill. If people have the means to fulfill it they will but they doesn't have it, STOP FORCING THEM TOO!!!

My friend once asked me, what happened when the rain stop pouring? I guess my answer will be that, there will be sunshine to bright up the day. That is what I'm experiencing in my life right now. I'm just waiting on the sun to rise to bright my day again. Ein, is that what you're trying to tell me?

Though what I'm experiencing is painfull and tiring, I'm happy because it teaches me about the true meaning of life. If this thing wouldn't have happened, I will be this one spoilt brat though I'm not but I wont know anything about real life. This life is like a dark cliud and a very heavy rain pouring non-stop and so I'm praying that soon, I will see the Sun in my life again. The most suitable song is,

Waiting on the Sun by Sixpence None The Richer.

I'm going nowhere and I'm going to take my time
All the questions in the world
I can leave in my mind
I'm waiting on the sunshine, sunshine

Well it seems that my weakness
Is sometimes my only strength
And in my incompleteness
You get your way

I'll be around and I will find
my way back down
yeah I've seen the sound of the sun..

Please pray with me and pray for me that I will see the sun again rise up high and bright up my life. I wouldn't want others to be in what I'm living with now. It's enough for me to feel it. I'm happy that me and my mom and my siblings are supporting each other. Thanks to all our friends and family who really understand us by supporting and believing in us. Don't worry, though I wrote like I'm having a hard time in life, actually I'm not. I just want to let out what I've been keeping inside of me. I'm happy with what I'm going through now cause like I said, it shows and teaches me bout the true meaning of life.

Thank you.

cheers!! -live LIFE happily-

Ever Wonder

hello..

Do you ever wonder living in a world full of shouting and quarelling and fighting all the time?Well, I'm in that world NOW. Not everyday it happens but it does happened. SOmetimes early in the morning people shouting at each other, scolding here and there. It's making me sick and bored from day to day. There's a peaceful somewhere, but we couldn't find it. Yesterday was fun. Everyday was happy. Today, this morning, not so fine, when people start scolding someone, and the other someone start scolding the other someone. So it just gets worst and worst.

Sometimes, I do feel like running away from this crazy world I'm leaving in, but hey, that's life. If everything just so perfect, then actually, it's NOT perfect. How did I handle all this shouting and fighting?Well, either crying or just play dumb or ignore everything. The best that I could do is, play dumb and listen to my mp3. Do you ever live in this kind of life?Do you ever wonder what is it like?Let me give you a bit taste of it. It's fun when everyone is fine with each other, laughing, having fun, playing with each other, it's like we're so close. But when the shouting begins, you will feel that you have a perfect family, where everyone is happy when it gets worst you feel like screaming to everyone and asked them to stop.

What I'm going through is fine actually. To think back again, there are other families much much worst than mine. So, to tell you the truth, I'm happy with my family. But when all the fighting begins, how I wish my dad was here. He will ease off all the pain and suffering I'm having. Every weekend we will go watch movie the whole family, eating lunch and dinner together. How cool was that?That's the story if my dad was still here. Things change when he's gone. Not everything though, just the weekend part. What a FUN life I'm having. But the good thing is, everytime each of us in trouble, family and friends are the first to help. Cut it short, I'm perfectly fine and happy with this life. Just wish the shouting and fighting does not happen frequently.

cheers!! - live LIFE happily-

I Know Nothing!!

hey,

not in a good mood. Do you ever feel like, whatever you did was wrong?Do you ever feel like whatever you did always make others criticised you?well, that's what is happening to me now. It seems like, everything i do, did or done, never bring any satisfaction to people around me. Well, not everything but some. Sometimes I, myself, feel so useless. Ni buat salah, itu buat x betul. Balik awal salah, tak nak balik salah, you get what i mean?

Why can't i do something with my own satisfaction?Bila buat, ada orang complain, bila tak buat ada orang tanya?Ayoooo..Sometimes I get tired with it. Can't people just accept what I want to do?Am i that ignorant?Ayaa..I'm sad but yet I'm not. I'm in the middle really. What to do right. Everyone expecting more than you expect from yourselves. No worries, I guess I'm cool now. I will always hide my pain through smile and laughter, that's the best way to overcome it too.

Though I might be ignorant, clueless, dumb, and much much more that people think I am, I know my true self that I am not all that. Whatever come, I will go through with it. Accept every criticism, though I won't like it but that what makes me a better person. Though when I have nothing to do, I love to go home, and some say I won't survive when I started working, I'm going to prove them wrong. Doesn't mean that I love being at home, I can't work. When there's a work to do, I'm going to fulfill it. I'm going to perform the best!! It's not a suicide or it's not a crime on loving to be home, why is it when I want to go home early from Uni or from my attachment, it's like I'm committing a crime???Well, some people are perfect and some are not, and I guess I'm the other some. There's so much to learn in this world, and I'm going to learn each and evryone of it!!!

cheers!! -live LIFE happily-

If everyone cared

Hehehehe, I'm talking about Akademi Fantasia here..hehehe..
it's quite a surprise how they eliminate 3 students but I'm so happy that Shawal still in the show.hehehe..

Okay, everything seems to be turn out great today. Been helping people alot today. In life, we can't just think about ourselves, we must think bout others too, kan?We can't be some selfish, arrogant, and self-centered people. World won't be in a peace mode if there's a lot of people like that. Have you heard the Nickelback song, If Everyone Cared?It's a great song. It's bout peacefulness, this verses are really meaningful and true; If everyone cared, nobody die, if everyone love, nobody die, if everyone shared, and swallowed their pride, we see the day that nobody dies. Isn't that just said something?

I wish all the fighting, the war just stop. Hate those two people who create war. Can't say their name, it won't be nice (yeah right!!) Why is it we have to fight to settle things?There are still many other ways to settle matters. If not fighting, suicide. What is this?Don't they have belief?If we have our belief, and if we are strong, things will be alright though it isn't. Aih, what to do nowadays. People can only think that kind of ways to settle their probs right. I think i said enough. Be writing again soon.

cheeres!! - live LIFE happily-

Disfunctional

hey..

Well, this is not my first time writitng a blog. I had a blog once but then it doesn't seem right with what i really wanted to write, so i decided to make a new one. Welcome to my blogspot.

The reason i chose this "disfunctional" word is because, Me, myself and I am a disfunctional person. You know, everything that we do may seems perfect but it's not. My life it has been great but sometimes there are ups and downs. Nothing's perfect in this world. Though things will never be perfect but we can try our very best to make it perfect. Well, its boring to be perfect all the time. I guess sometimes we just got to be cool bout some stuff.

Back to the topic disfunctional, my family are one loving family but there are times when we just can't get along with each other. I thought my family was perfect but it turns out, it's not so perfect. Ah well, what to do, that's what we call life, right? Sometimes, i regard me and my family as some disfunctional people who are trying to make things better byt shouting at each other. Hahahaha, funny ain't it?But as times goes on, we still love and care for each other. I love my family very much. Though we always argued, quarrelled, and being tempered at each other but, in the end we still need each other.

One thing here readers, if you think your family is not perfect, don't think it that way. Perfect has a very discriptive meaning. Just love your family, care for them, and support them evry single time. Family is just like your friends. They are there for you when you need them. Maybe some of them didn't show their carringness towards you but deep down they do. One little advice to all you readers out there, just live your life happily, if you're not happy, try to be happy...

cheers!! - live LIFE happily-