Love...It hurts so bad..

hola..

Let me tell you a story of me n love. Honestly, i never really been in love but maybe now I know what love is.. I used to like n went out with this anonymous guy that i like for 2 years. I decided to break with him but just for awhile, like take a break cause we were in a situation where everything is not right n we always fight. Well that's the past.

The best part about the past is that, when i decided to reconcile things, he's with someone else. It hurts. I'm not blaming him but he gave his promise to me that he'll wait but he didn't. It really broke my heart. Now, I don't know, everytime i see him, saw him, I get heart aches. Am i still in love with him?Sometimes I wish that we could get back together but I guess that will remain a dream.

It hurts me so bad to see him approaches my friends but me. Why?It really hurts. I wish I could just told him how i really feels about all this but I just want to move on. Why can't I?Why is it so hard?I feel like strangling him. I want to say I love him but I'm not, I want to say I hate him, so far from that. Why is he ignoring me?Does he hate me so much?

I didn't mean to end things but he just didn't get it that I need time n space at that time. I guess he's not really in to me too at that time. I got to say, when we went out, he makes me happy n I was happy with him. But you tend to get annoyed when he doesn't trust you. That's why I need space. He didn't understand that part.

Now, I'm hurt for my own action and yes, maybe he could be saying, "hah!!you deserves that lady". Maybe I do deserves what I'm having now. I didn't mean to hurt him and I didn't mean to end things like this but why is he so comfortable with my friends and ignore me completely?It really hurts to see he left comment on your friend's page but didn't reply at all at your comment. It hurts. I hate it. I want to cry.


What am I to do?Love hurts huh??It seems now, a better guy than him hasn't appear yet. Now, I can't fine anyone better than him. I'm pathetic I know. Well, I hope this feeling go away or he would treat me normal. Love hurts so bad but when you first fall in love it is the most happy moments and the most happy feelings you ever felt but when it turns out like mine, its the worst. See ya, here's a song for you people out there:


Dashboard Confessional
Stolen


We watched the season pull up its own stakes
and catch the last weekend of the last week
before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
another sun soaked season fades away

you have stolen my heart
you have stolen my heart

invitation only grant farewells
crash the best one, of the best ones
clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

you have stolen my heart
you have stolen my heart

and from the ballroom floor we are a celebration
one good stretch before our hibernation
our dreams assured and we all, we'll sleep well
sleep well, sleep well, sleep well, sleep well

you have stolen
you have stolen
you have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in the highest heels
you are the best one, of the best ones
we all look like we feel

you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart


cheers!! -live LIFE happily-