Cloudy Days :-(

hey guys..

how i see the days become so dark..
you may think i look happy on the outside, nobody know how i feel on the inside..
my days are becoming back to the day before i see the sun(read previous post, u know what i mean)..so Ikea next friday eh?linda dun forget ur promise n my promise will be next sem..

k back to the story..im happy when im with u guys but then think bout home of coz la happy kan but there's alot that u dunno n i dunno how to explain..yes, of course the problem with my family is the thing that everybody need most in the world, MONEY!!yes, now it is a big thing for my family..

that's y im not too enthusiast sgt to go to ikea coz i dun have the money..im writing not because i need ur sympathy but just to expree my feelings out..what can i do to help my mom..Astro pun dah kene potong tinggal yg my brother nye je..how sad this life can be?but this is a test from Allah..With it, it teach me how to be strong n now stronger..betul, while writing this, i really feel like crying..what can i do to help my mom?nasib baik abang ke-2 n ke-3 dah kerja just to help my mom with the financial..I don't wanna talk bout my 1st brother..if i start talking bout him, it wont be nice..me n my 4th bro, the only thing that we can help our mom is by, supporting each other n take care of ourselves whilst in UIA..

Please guys, when you see me, don't make any sympathy face as I dun want you guys to treat me differently..Thanks to Linda, i'll be joining u guys to berbuka in Ikea..Now, i'm just praying for some miracle..And i'm praying that the sun will always shine on us (my family n u guys) and im praying that whatever i'm going through right now, hope it will never happen to guys as it is not something you really want to experience..I'm bless though with this experience, it really teach me to be strong and independent and not spoil..With ur support and love, i survived then and i'm sure i'll survive now..

Luv u guys!!


Ode To My Family
by Cranberries

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me, do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as a fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you, I miss
'Cause I liked it, I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

-live life happily-